The Busyness of Forgetting
If people are upset because you've forgotten something, console them by letting them know you didn't forget - you just weren't remembering.
-Winnie the Pooh
I could go into a lengthy description of my forgetfulness...my procrastination, lack of organization, dreadful time-management etc. But one of my many thoughts for the new year is that it's time for me to stop chattering about my shortcomings. Not to sugar-coat them or act as if they aren't there - simply to think of them less.
After all, who wants to hear a girl rant when there is so much beautiful life to be lived?!
Thus far, the 20s have been such an adventure. History buff that I am, having submersed myself in the previous century almost more than my own, I couldn't wait to see what this decade held.
Turns out...a lot.
In the midst of turmoil, while I bounce between marveling at this incredible opportunity to make history and wondering how I could ever survive without electricity, life keeps sprinting past and I somehow have to keep up with it.
For the last several years, most of my New Year goals have been pretty much the same: write more, read more, finish that music book, cultivate a green thumb, and stay healthy. This year, I sat down with my planner and found all those goals staring me in the face. Again. And I shoved them aside. Because I'm tired of them. I could go into depth about properly setting goals, the value of a well-thought-out plan, and all the reasons my resolutions were never realized...but instead I'll tell you this:
To the list-maker and the challenge-taker and the planner-or-bust: sometimes life is just better when you grab it with both hands, do your very best with every moment, and enjoy it. Yes, make your to-do list, be productive, smash those goals. But don't do it to reach the end. Do it for the journey. Be in this for the long haul.
All that to say, I haven't forgotten about you, reader, I just haven't been remembering. But I'm learning. And what fun it is to learn because you love it, not because it is one more check on my list.
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